ﺴ۩๑十字鎖๑۩ﺴ

                

                       if there is a boy,who will always walk near the road side and keep you

                       if there is a boy,who will take off his coat and cover you up in a freezing

                       if there is a boy,who will get down on his knees to tie your shoelace just

                       if there is a boy,who will kiss you awake in the morning and whisper in

                       if there is a boy,who will blow the soup cold and feed you spoon by spoon

                       if there is a boy,who never says those three words but will let you feel everyday 

                       if you have already owned such boy........

                            

                      

 

                                           是不是想的越多,忧虑就越多

                   

                                           有时候会觉得好累,

                    

                                           其实自己真的不想去想什么

                                 

          
                                             有时真的会觉得迷茫...不知道为什么,不知道关于什么...
                                                     会有淡淡的情绪,渐渐萦绕氤氲开来
                                             想要一直呆在这个人身边,开心时,难过时,都粘着他
                                                   可以什么都不用想安心的享受他的亲吻
                                         衣服上的清香,洗发水的味道,眼睫毛投下的淡淡的阴影
                                                        喜欢是一种氛围,是一种习惯
                                         
                                                       他说,只要抱在一起就觉得幸福
                                                       他说,拉勾永远这样不要分开
                                                       他说,温暖的记忆太多想到分手就撕心裂肺
                                                       他说,i just can't imagine a life without u
                                  
                                             我不知道如果离开他我还习不习惯一个人吃饭,一个人看书
                                                         一个人在磕痛之后默默的揉着伤处
                                                          一个人在寂寞的时候无声的哭泣
                                            然后在寂静如水的夜晚开始翻天覆地的想念他温暖的体温
                                                             思念一旦泛滥,该怎么停止
                                            

老娘又跑来更新了- ________ -..我为什么如此勤奋...掀桌><~

今天是小亮和长吉的birthday party,说是party其实就是一堆男人聚在那边喝酒...今天终于发现...喝high的男人有多疯狂=^=....

刚开始还满正常的就敬敬酒打打庄什么的...虽然划拳还是有点恐怖....不过依然有纯洁的男生玩"剪刀石头布"...汗~最先倒下的是小GEN同学..果然拎了一瓶二锅头上来的就是不一样...接着长吉也趴下了~然后..小亮也顺利的晕晕的了...结果就开始七零八落的搞的我很无语...过了一会xu领了一堆大一的上来....结果大一的普遍比我们都老- =````然后长吉就说"大一的哥哥们..balabalabala..."冷~....结果我受不了那种疯癫的状态就跑出来了...然后顺利的把小亮拐到外贸的草地上聊天...yeye的晚上的风增冷=^=....后来chen打电话来叫我们回去切蛋糕...于是又挪回去~后来其实还满high的...疯狂涂奶油中- -````不过最后不知道为什么有人就脱衣服...然后长吉就high了说"是北方的就脱衣服"...个么南方的..比如啥宁波的就很hapi说偶南方滴~...结果被剽了句"跟香港比起来是北方的就脱衣服"=  =...于是我恍惚觉得我走进了屠宰场...一片片的...好晃眼=^=....不过最后那会会还是满hapi的...大家有唱生日歌啊什么的...虽然他们依然起哄10s的kiss- -....这是不是惯例啊爷爷的....就知道会被cuo了...- -~

我还想说什么来着- -....对了...其实今天来的有一对gay,觉得他们真的还满幸运的能找到自己心爱的人,真的满难得的,因为不管怎么说社会的因素还是个人的因素,能够这样在一起是很不容易的事,希望他们能一直那么甜蜜~GOD BLESS THEM!!

 

 

 

i don't know what's happening these days, 'cos i don't feel like talking with people any more.

 actually i'm not that talktive as i know,but not so quiet either. it's not that comfortable but i just can not figure out a way to change it.what the hell is going on right now?

i don't know, it's complicated,and i'm really confused,about all the stuff around,it's like i'm kind of lost,what am i up to?

  time really flies, never in my life have i sensed it like this, maybe i just got too much chores to see to,say, perfomaces, the stuff in dancing club,the affairs with ryo,maybe i'm just a little bit exausted.what depressed me more is that i just can't help to find out that there are so many people around me which i myself actually can't get along with.it really really makes me feel sick.they are all my fellow classmates ,or more closely my friends,which means that i can't just tell them "i don't like you,never ever show up in front of me",and simply walk away without even a glance.worse more,i should even make up a smile  when we come across each other on the street.that sucks~!!!i really mean it~!!!

ok...maybe i'm just being a little bit extreme,maybe i'm not sociable enough to get along with those i should but don't want to,but i'm just a kid ok? i don't feel like it~!!!sometimes i do envy those who can smile and talk freely to everyone,i mean, everyone should have dislikes,but there are someone who are just reserve enough not to show it,'cos it's too hard for me to achieve this standard.that's a sign of mature, isn't it?should i someday get used to this?

well, at last, i may mention a few about ryo, i'm really happy with him,it's like i have nothing to worry about when he is by my side,like i am a little princess surrounded by the warm and uncountable love,and happiness is the only word i can think of to describe this emition.i really own you lots of thanks,ryo~

thanks for watching out for me 'cos you know i'm just so careless~

thanks for comforting me when i am down~

thanks for kissing away those tears when i am crying~

thanks for sharing my joyness and baring my ocassionally bad temper~

and thanks for being with me ,anyway~

 

 

额啊...最近变好懒啊=          =....我要冬眠了的说....抖抖~

冷空气好猖獗啊...yeye的~亲们要注意保暖了的说...虽然我今天还是穿的裙子-________,-

姐姐最近要走可爱风了>_<~狂爱粉色系了捏~....爱心...粉色的花花..哦也~~好想抱啊~~扭扭>///<~

最近每天都很晚才回来...回来也不一定开电脑...开电脑也不一定开空间...开空间也不一定打的开...打的开也不一定会更新- =```杀了我...直接~!!!!所以....直接导致...貌似我快一个月没更新了???...54飘~

今天很颓的躺在寝室里...好颓的玩了几个小时劲舞- =````突然觉得要发奋了就跑来更新了的说~

大家一起来念"小草真勤奋...真哑么真勤奋~!!!"...鼓掌...撒花ing....

前几天舞社来了个扭扭男=_________=....我要崩溃了哑...那是男人啊....扭是扭的类...现在为什么人妖那么多啊同学们...这是什么原因啊..啊...啊???我觉得我要去变性了- -~yuki还考虑用扭扭男的动作来编舞...杀了我~!!!xine~

最近我还很勤劳的做了一回matchmaker=^=...小草真是善良的人啊~~

啦啦啦...大家一起来念"小草真善良哑...真哑么真善良"...被pia飞....- -```

所以...小B哥你要努力哑知道伐...亏姐姐那么辛苦的帮你找到那个pl妹妹~记得请客0(>_<)0~

ps:今天更新了相册...大概传了几张...要抱走去p的某同学麻烦留个脚印让偶知道哈...3q~

pps:有谁知道缓解鼻炎的有效方法务必要让偶知道额- -....我家小亮生病了的说....

ppps:最近米衣服穿鸟...哭~不习惯穿裤子了- =```冬天...表示又要走朴素的农民路线了么...~~やだ....TOT~

1 要传出去的人:大慈大悲的yui小朋友很善良的放过みな鸟~哗啦啦<鼓掌声>....
2 你的小名：kao~第一道是什么无聊题啊..跳过跳过~
3 年龄：永远的17岁~>_<~哦也!!!
4 职业：跟你说了我是死神- -....
5 兴趣：high到死....
6 喜欢的异性类型：额...额....额....
7 专长/特级：哈?啥?
8 有没有什么证书：毕业证书- -```
9 有烦恼的事吗：kao~欠扁!!!
10 喜欢和讨厌的食物喜欢一切好吃的讨厌一切不好吃的...美食王道~!!也也....
11 对你爱的人说一句：亲~~
12 介绍你要传出去的5个人： yo~跳过跳过....
13 用一种动物来比喻传问卷给你的人：鬣狗- =````
14 用喜欢的角色来比喻传问卷给你的人：角色???额....蜡笔小新>_<~
15 用食物来比喻传问卷给你的人：小熊饼干..啦啦拉~
16 用颜色来比喻将接棒的5人：哦也~~跳过....
帅哥偶很给面子的答完了哈....人家要奖励>_<~扭.....-0-~

          游荡   远方

 

                   这是个流浪的城市,到处有腐烂的气息.

                      梧桐叶飘落,被面无表情的清洁工人扫去

                            教室里弥漫着咖啡的味道,令人恶心

               不顾一切找寻一些生僻字,记住字音字形,弄的人不像人鬼不像鬼

                     也许,中文在这一刻蹂躏着所有人,然后在某个炎热的午后,

                      在清脆的铃声响起后,被抛弃在那个夏天的角落>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

                                          

                           没有在落日中归去的雁,没有在高草中呼喊的青春

                             没有可以陪伴一起走过的人,没有抬头一起微笑的默契

                           我独自留在洪荒中,手足无措,目光散漫

                                           老家的青藤开始蔓延,我闻到晚风中的火花,暗夜御风飞行

                              很多时间觉得空虚绝望,烦躁不安,

               走到阳台上,看到对面屋顶的鸽子成群的飞过,啪啪作响

                 落下灰色白色的羽毛

                        我在阳光中眯起双眼,鸽群消失在水泥城的>>>>>>>>>>>

         <<<<<<<      我不明白为什么他们总是盘旋的飞过,是在寻找什么还是遗落了什么.......................

                                      

                 很多人来来去去,我穿梭在一成不变的通往学校和家里的路上

      路边的店开开关关,总是有光鲜明亮的招牌几天后黯然陨落

                          有一家大型的发型店,金壁辉煌的直到半夜

                             总有顶着奇怪造型的男人跑来跑去,灯红酒绿,挥霍人生

           租的房子有陈旧的气息,墙纸上有斑驳的痕迹

               上个宿主高兴的去了浙大

                           我看到他留下的借书证,留着青涩的发型和一些懵懂的目光

      我在墙纸上贴满海报,遮掉那些灰暗的留着别人记忆的墙

                         偶尔抬头,能看到阿修罗一脸诡异的笑>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

                             

                               我面无表情的躺在床上,不想睡觉也不想起来

            想起一些诡异的梦境,一些记忆中的人和一些还未曾遇到过的人

                                梦中有一成不变的黄沙,枯老衰败的树根,一些破碎的帆布帐篷和热带雨林里鲜艳奇异的花草

                男男女女,熟悉的和陌生的........................................

        最近有太多的梦境,仿佛快被吞噬了,

                                 幻真幻假,浮浮现现

                                      梦醒了,我探出头,大口大口的呼吸,手脚冰冷

                  看到窗外渐晓的天空,手表显示,5点

                             一直在挣扎,有一些无谓

             我想就这样离开,睡去,忘记是不是幸福

                                      记忆留下,幸福飘零

                                      在游荡

                                      远方>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>